On holiday...best time to diet?

I wish to be able to diet successfully without having to fear I may one night chew my own hand off in hunger...(o_o)''

Okay this is one of the things my sister told me. Apparently, one can slim down if you survive on green apples and water for a week. I really planned on doing it...but it seems my willpower isn't as strong or loud as the grumblings of my stomach. Sweat...On the 1st day, I have successfully ate an apple for lunch, then dinner. After 2 apples, my stomach still calls out for more food. My 'dear dear' brother apparently out to torture me, left a plate of fried mee on the dining table. As i would have to walk past the table to reach the kitchen and to get my apple. All together I have walked past the plate of mee 4 times...Each time with its own thoughts...
1st trip: Wu~~~Fried mee for dinner...Must be good to be able to eat.
2nd trip: Why didn't me brother finish it? Urgh...
3rd trip: OMG~~~I wanna eat...
4th trip: Imagining...."Putting the mee and meat into my mouth..."

It was torture and evidently my mom can c it in my face. Finally, she was too heartsick to see her precious daughter suffer from chronic hunger and finally broke my resolve to starve myself all in the name of beauty. And shame on me, in the end, i did finish the plate of mee...

It was after that meal that I realise, Shit...I still have a few celebratory meals with my friend...Pasar Malam and Steamboat... Therefore, i conclude, I can never survive on apples and water only...My next and modified plan was to eat one meal per day and the remaining meals=apples.

So far i have succeeded in keeping to that routine but i must tell you or anyone out there...Why suffer for beauty...I'm thinking of quitting all the time but wat to do? Fat ppl=less chance in society because first impression says it all. Society nowadays look at ppl through tinted glasses, favouring those with nice features and beautiful body...It is because of these, kids nowadays are bulimic and anorexic, and ppl are dying from plastic surgery. All due to the warped standards ppl have nowadays on beauty. If can, I would never have bowed to this dictate but wat to do, who am I to change the whole worlds perception and therefore, i will lose weight only up to the level where my BMI is healthy. I will not lose more than that! Think ppl! Change your shallow perceptions...fat ppl can be as accomplished as others, maybe even better because we are happy and have enough nutrients sent up to our brain...